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So like I said, i'd speak more on it later, its later. This is Sabrina and me in Fl. We went on a little 2 1/2 week vacation--I got the pleasure of meeting her grandparents, sister, niece and godmother [which no one has ever done]. The trip meant a lot to me.

Anyways, Sabrina. She's 20. Younger than me. She is my everything. We've been together going on 7 months, long ass time. Full of ups and downs. Lots of downs but a lot of ups. Sometimes I feel as though I'm not good enough or I don't make her happy, and I mean, I know I don't make her happy all of the time but I try my best to do so. I'd give her the world if I had it in my hands. I probably sound like such a sap but its the truth. She gives me the major blues but I don't plan on going anywhere. She's meeting the fam in about a month (god willing) which is a huge deal for me. So, I'm looking forward to that.

We're good together, she's taught me a lot about myself and about others. I see her trying, I also see her shutting down into her shell. It's funny seeing from how we came from "best friends" to her being the woman I plan and hope to marry. She surprises me almost everyday, and every day I know how blessed I am to have such a strong minded, influential woman in my life, standing behind me daily.

I'm thankful. Very thankful.

This love thing is hard, we're 20 but we've been through it all with each other and with others. I see it's hard for her to let me in and at times it's hard for me to let her in. Hell, we finally reached our connection point about a month ago. Happiness is what I'm trying to give her, not contentness, but pure happiness.