So, I lost my job last week. On my day off. It's kind of hard going from working since you were 16 to being unemployed. it's very hard going from being the "bread winner" and not having to ask your parents for anything, to not having much. Not to say that i'm broke but now I have to actually think about the shit I buy and If I nee it/is it worth it.

It was hard telling my girlfriend she was now dating an unemployed (for the time being) pre med student.

It kind of hit me hard this week, haven't had anyone to really talk to about it. My mom asked if I were depressed, I wouldn't say depressed but I am having some blues.

I actually used to look forward to going to work, it wasn't just a pay check but it was an experience. I enjoyed my job. Not many 20 year olds can say they've helped during surgeries or were assistant to huge clinical trials. It was a big deal, something I prided myself with. And now it's gone.

My parents, my girlfriend, my friends make jokes, I laugh or I let it slide but, it does suck.

It is different not doing SHIT for 24 hours a day. I can't handle it.