I went to church yesterday and the sermon spoke to my heart. It was about love and how "young people" often throw away what they have. The preacher spoke about not letting our trials turn to tragedy and that though we aren't on a mountain through every step of our relationship and there are valleys that we have to cross love conquers all.
When you go to a holy place, whether you believe in God or the spirit but the word speaks to you, and it's directly dealing with a situation, you know that it was just for you. The preacher said "stay" because at the end of it all, nothing worth having is worth struggle.
In my mind I knew he was speaking to me. As if I were sitting alone in that church.

Then I got home. And received a phone call. Ending my relationship. As of April 1, 2012. I am a single woman. When I was being told this, I was calm. I did not cry. I was non chalant about everything and I spoke my mind as well. But around 4 this morning, it hit me. It hit me that the person I planned on spending the rest of my life with? The woman I love with every fiber of my being, she ended that. I no longer know where my heart is, and I can tell you I no longer know where my head is. I was not expecting it to hit me as soon as it did but it did.

Sigh. I'll continue this later.